My advent calendar

As the month of December approaches seems like faster then I can blink my eyes. I have decided that instead of buying the kids those chocolate advent calendars that seem to stay on top of the counter or the fridge and we forget to eat them and We eventually end up eating 3 or 4 of those little chocolates on one day. So this year I am making an advent calendar and each envelope has a task or activity to do each day of the month. Some are just simple things like decorate sugar cookies, or wrap presents together, and some are write a Christmas card to a soldier, do the operation shoebox to understand that Christmas is about giving, I also included to read the true story of the true meaning of Christmas so they understand that santa isn'[t what the true meaning of Christmas is. I really think this will be fun to do as a family and spend time with each other. I think that the kids will really enjoy these activities. These envelopes took a little bit of time to make but I did each and everyone of them by hand so I hope that they hold up until then. We shall see though.

Update

lets see a lot has gone on since I last blogged. Madisyn came home with lice and it turned into an epidemic, it was horrible. I felt like the worst person in the world and felt it was my fault that she had gotten it, but it wasn't. I never had to deal with these annoying and nasty bugs before so we had an adventure ahead of us. She was scratching her head and her hair was sticking up everywhere from scratching so I checked and of course to my horror there was a bug running around on her head. EWW I thought I looked at Greg and whispered "she has lice" so I ran too Albertsons, got the box of RID and came home. We put it on her head and combed out bugs for about 4 1/2 hours. And to our nightmare the RID didn't work at all, so we researched and researched to figure out what else we could do to get rid of this crap. Come to find out that we had everything already in the house vinegar and tons of white conditioner, lice comb, and shower caps and tons and tons of laundry to wash. It was overwhelming everyday combing out bugs that we missed and eggs on top of eggs I was so tired of seeing more eggs day after day would this ever end after 3 weeks of this I was so ready to call the lice professionals to come into our home treat all of our heads and clean our house. I was ready to pay for this to be gone and I didn't care how much it was going to cost. I was done. Have you ever read what is in the ingredients in the rid no wonder why it will burn your head if you leave it on too long. We will never ever use that stuff again. The vinegar and conditioner worked wonders. We had another episode of the nasty bugs again not to long ago but we think we caught it early. We did the vinegar and conditioner treatment again and combed out eggs and tons of laundry again. We have overcame the overwhelming epidemic that was set forth in front of us. Madisyn lost her first tooth and the tooth fairy came while she was sleeping and left her 1.00 underneath her pillow, it was all glittery and sparkled.

Goodbye 2013, hello 2014

Its 2014 we made it :) yay! Everyone makes new years resolutions and it usually begins with I want to go on a diet or loose weight, be healthier. Usually mine does too, that's pretty much every year that I make those same new years resolutions. But this year is going to be a different resolution, I have made the decision to not make that same resolution because it never works I usually fall off after a month of doing it and its not reality. This year my new years resolution is to be me and not give in too things that don't make me happy and to let go of the past. Learn to deal with things and people who have hurt me in the past, and to recognize that not everyone is going to hurt me and to be able to let people in again. I plan to check into and start going back to school to better the life of my children and mine,to go up not down. I am so ready for a new and positive outlook in this year 2014. I am not going to make a list of everything that I want to change about myself but just start with the little things and see what happens. I may succeed in all these goals that I have set for myself maybe not but at least there something that will set me in the right path of new beginnings and new positive outlooks of people and things that I require from myself. I hope that I have many adventures this year and things that I will learn from. I really want to be inspired this year to do things that I have always wanted to do but never had the confidence to do them. So this year I will try to work on that whole aspect as well. Welcome to my new adventure and life lessons.

The year in review 2013

The whole black eyed pea saying that if you eat at least one it will bring you good luck into the next year. I thought when everything started to down spiral that the saying was completely off and that it would bring you bad luck because nothing good was happening to me, But guess what it was true everything happens for a reason there were more positives than negatives that came out of this year. So that black eyed pea did give me good luck. It brought many new challenges, yes but it gave me something I never had before determination. As I reflect on the Year 2013 and how much has happened to me, Lets just say a lot of crap. This year has been filled with heartbreaks, struggles, independence, new adventures, new beginning's and endings, happiness, building friendships and relationships. There has been many positive things that this year has brought me as well as negative things that has changed my whole life and flipped it upside down, and nothing that I would wish upon my worst enemy. It has brought me many lessons that I have learned from. Nothing in life is a mistake its a lesson in disguise and things that I have learned from, With each one it has taught me something. Many of them I have no idea what yet, but someday I will. I have built a relationship with my father this year and have become closer with him which is something that I have never had. I am so happy that I was given that opportunity to rebuild that relationship with somebody that is a huge part of my life. I feel like I am much closer to my family then I have been in the past. I have been able to talk to them about problems and get advice from them. This year I think for me was about learning that life is what it is, and sometimes people are going to break you but you will get up and move on and be that much stronger. I am stronger than I ever have been in my life, that's a positive. I am more optimistic than I have been before. I have also learned that I need my family more than I thought that I did. When all of the bad stuff happened I felt like a tornado had just come through and nothing was ever going to get better. It did though like life always does. Life is full of trials and tribulations and sometimes you got to take it by the horns and say I am going to conquer this. How much can one person endure? apparently I can handle a lot more then I had ever imagined. Its amazing after you look back on what you have overcome and struggled with how much you come out stronger and ready for the next thing to come across, Because guess what I can handle it. Bring on the next chapter in life the year 2014 because its going to be awesome. 2014 is going to bring many new adventures and more outgoing things for me and my family. 2014 is going to be a positive and uplifting year because 2013 has been rough and hell for me and my family. We got through it, its almost over.

Passenger - Let Her Go [Official Video]

I must say that I hate dating, I don't think its fun at all. We all are looking for the one and it seems to take a lot to find that one that we are all meant to be with. How will I know if the one got away because I didn't want to go on the emotional roller coaster that was becoming a trend. Maybe just maybe I learned something from this about myself and about how this world works but then again maybe not. To learn to let go of something even though I wanted it so bad, and that my friends is part of growing up and  With every life lesson and heart break we grow from it and change even if we don't want to, but it happens. I in fact have grown a lot from mike breaking my heart after telling me that he wanted a divorce. My world was crushed and I thought that I wasn't going to be able to go on, but guess what I picked the pieces up of that broken heart and amended it back together even though I hated him and didn't want anything to do with him for awhile. I have to admit that because he did what he did that I was going to punish him by keeping him from talking to the kids or even getting pictures of them. Because I felt that he didn't deserve it. He did this to us and its all his fault. But after awhile I started to heal my heart and realized that that's not right and I was actually in the wrong for doing that. But I didn't want anything to do with him if I didn't have to talk to him it made my life a little bit easer to deal with what was going on. It wasn't fair to the kids either but I was hurting and didn't really know how to deal with what was going on around me. He was my everything, my world and after 10 years I had to learn to be without him and know that it wasn't perfect like I thought that it was. I had to learn to let go of him and the life that I once had it was over and I will never have it back, but With time I healed and moved on with my life.  Then after moving on from this I had doubts at first since I was really afraid to get my heart broken again because it was hard to get over the first one. But it happens everyone gets their heartbroken but its part of life. And it happened again, here we go again, another heart break now what do I do. The same thing get up and deal with it and maybe not fall so quickly next time. Sometimes though you just can't help who we fall for, it is what it is, its going to happen just learn to let go. I am now waiting for the next one to break my heart and than again another damn lesson to be learned. I just wish I knew what lessons they were to be learned from. Maybe its just time to let go of it and then maybe someday I will realize why I had to let go of it whatever it maybe have been.

Sara Evans - A Little Bit Stronger (+playlist)

How do I cope with that

You think that everything is fine and maybe its a little to perfect and then bang,it wasn't perfect anymore. And now You wait for him to text and call but he never does, every time the text tone goes off you jump and run to the phone thinking that maybe just maybe he changed his mind, but he didn't. But as the days pass, day by day you loose hope, you start thinking and wondering what went wrong, what did I do to make him not want to be with me anymore. Its amazing how one thing can change everything, one second and one word can change the outcome of so much. How do I get on with life when I feel like the world has crashed on my head once again. How do you know when your right for someone or vice versa? I guess only time will tell that part, nobody really knows until we are upon it. Even though my heart is broken, It will amend again with time. Although I still believe in fairytales but the fairy tales never tell you about the many heart breaks that you may face in life. Some may hurt more than others and some may not hurt at all. With all the hurt that you have endured in such a short period of time you become guarded from love because you have been hurt to much and can't let it happen again. If that guy hurt me, what's this one capable of doing to me. Relationships don't always end up in a perfect happily ever after like they do in fairy tales. We all would like to believe that they do, then love would be as simple as the story of Cinderella, But its reality and it usually doesn't end up like that. So we get up and move on with life and try to keep busy so we don't think about him. The simple fact that it doesn't help that everywhere you go you see his vehicle or that you see the places that you went together and the memories that you shared. Even where you first met is everywhere you go because its the way you come home from work and go to work every day, it used to make you smile and now it just makes you sad. Guess I better find a new route to and from work so I don't have to see it everyday and think about him.